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The last time I was asked when I knew I was transgender was by my daughter who correctly said “You always knew right?” She was asking primarily because of her own trans child and how to understand them. (They/them are their preferred pronouns.) I told her I knew to an extent I have always known something was wrong with how I perceived gender.
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In my own personal gender research, I have read of the hormonal effects of the “DES” medication which was given to pregnant women in the time of my birth. If you are not aware, the medication “flooded” the wombs of women known to have problem births. By definition, “DES” is a synthetic form of the female estrogen hormone. The end result was it enabled the women to go full term and deliver healthy babies. My parents were on the verge of giving up and adopting a baby after a series of three still births until “DES” and I came along. As I researched the medication, the more I felt it could have a connection to my gender dysphoria. It could be why, all along I felt so natural anytime I attempted to research my inner feminine side. Perhaps the feeling had been always with me, including the time before I could even express it.
The entire hormonal aspect of my life came full circle when I started on my own version of “DES” when I started more synthetic estrogen to my system through hormone replacement therapy. It seemed my body took to the hormonal process similar to how a duck takes to water. Changes to my body came…
