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Since I have spent the majority of my morning fixing my bank account following a hackers damage, I thought perhaps a post would be relevant. The more I worked on stopping the damage it seemed the more I discovered I had to do.
Not unlike when I made the slow decision I was gender dysphoric. One of the big problems was the word I think had not even been invented or if it was I didn’t have access to it during the pre-internet era. I can only remember vividly something was terribly wrong and why was I one of the few boys in the world who wanted to be a girl. I barely knew what a transvestite or cross dresser was.
One of the problems I had was I mistakenly thought girls had it so much easier than boys. They were the gender who were allowed to wear the pretty clothes and seemingly didn’t have the pressure to compete for things like grades and sports. The entire idea was cruel and unusual punishment as I had to sneak behind my families back to wear my small collection of female clothes. Why couldn’t I just be like all the other boys in the neighborhood and forget about the insanity of wanting to be a girl.
It wasn’t to be and my gender was hacked. I was hopelessly locked in to desiring to be the other gender. Why couldn’t I be the young girl with all the dark hair I saw on vacation one year or be the girl I always sat across from in study hall or home room.
