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I have been curious, as I add to the years I have lived as my authentic self , how long would/will it take for my dreams to switch over to being exclusively feminine in nature. Right now nearly all of my dreams are from my male past.
I guess living nearly sixty years struggling to live in a male world completely imprinted my subconscious. As much as I dislike it, I seem to bypass the times I spent with my first wife (seven years) and current partner of ten years and go straight to my deceased wife of twenty five years.
As much as I feel frustrated my dreams are still masculine in nature, obviously it seems there is nothing I can do to flip the switch and be feminine. Perhaps as time goes by and I compile more experiences as a transgender woman, all of this will change.
I also know in the scope of life, dreams are less of a priority. Just getting by in the world is just more important.
For example, today Liz and I have several errands to run including her getting a booster vaccine. It would be a poor time to get harassed over living as my authentic gender. Since I will be wearing a mask, chances are slim.
Speaking or writing about Liz, she is more of a believer in the power of dreams. So I asked her what she thought of my dreams. She said several things. The first suggestion was did I have specific dreams of being a guy or was I…
