Long ago, I sought out a rabbit hole I found I did not want to escape.
In the beginning, I did not go deep into the hole so I could supposedly easily escape if I wanted to. The further I went, the harder it was to escape, even I wanted to. What happened was gender euphoria set in and the entire cross dressing experience became increasingly pleasurable as well as feeling incredibly natural. The problem I faced was how to cover the entrance to my rabbit hole so no one else in my family could discover it. Very early it was easy when I could attempt to borrow select clothes from my Mom’s closet which ended when I became too big to wear them. Then I had to rely on my own limited financial resources to buy fashion and makeup accessories.
For awhile, the pressure to go away and cross dress became so intense I needed to find a spot away from the house to establish another private rabbit hole. I found the best spot in a quiet wooded area next to our rural home. I was able to protect my secret collection of feminine clothes in plastic bags and hope they would be protected enough as well as not be discovered. I did well, because they never were and I was provided another place to go to cross dress. If even for a short period of time.
The better I became at perfecting the “art” of fashion and makeup, the more I wanted to leave my novice transgender…
