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Along the way, of course I have read extensively on being Bi-Polar which I am and Bi-Sexual which I am not.
Looking back, yet another of the “Bi’s” I considered I was that I was Bi-Personality. Finally I determined all of it was just another phase I was going through to justify my gender issues. Along the way I had gone through a number of other “phases” or so I thought. One of the main ones was I cross dressed in feminine clothes temporarily to relieve the pressures of life. As I grew older and faced such pressures as college and the military, I would grow out of my need to cross dress. Wow! Was I wrong. The older I got the more I grew into my feminine self. Even to the point of coming out as transgender.
One of the more extreme “phases” I went through was thinking I simply had two personalities, one male and one female. The more I considered it, the less simple it all became. What I refused to do was listen to my authentic feminine self causing great stress. Finally I could take the stress no longer and decided to begin hormone replacement therapy to start gender transitioning seriously.
At this point I was interested to learn if my transition would have any serious positive effect of my Bi-Polar status. The short story was it didn’t. I still suffered the same anxiety and depression I did before. So I could take that “Bi” off my list. Or one didn’t explain the other. As it turned out, transitioning was going to solve another “Bi” in my life. Was I indeed suddenly sexuality attracted to men? Fairly quickly I learned I wasn’t into…
