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As I was making my gender journey to living as a full time transgender woman, I often tried to pass myself off as being a free spirited person.
Often that carried a maybe I would go even as far as dressing up as a woman on occasion. Especially during all of my Halloween adventures, this came in handy. It also was successful when I tried all the drinking that I did. Being free spirited just led to being the instigator when it came to inviting a group of friends together for a good time. It basically all started because of my family used to get together for big parties which of course included quantities of alcohol. So the entire process seemed to be natural to me since I was raised with it.
Another factor to consider was being a free spirit and being able to drink more than the next guy somehow made me more of a man than he was. This worked because I couldn’t out compete most other guys in athletics of other competitive activities. If all else failed I could try to out drink them. Deep down inside I hope I would try to outrun all my gender issues and live what I considered at the time a more “normal” life. Needless to say the process didn’t work except serving to keep me deeper in my gender closet.
Being a free spirit with the cis-women friends I had was a whole different process. In my endless search to discover what a cis-woman’s life was really all…
